OB care... Or lack therof

Ok, so this is a rant post. But here it goes... So I am now 11 weeks with a happy healthy bean (as of my 10w5d us at the RE's office). I had an appointment with my new OB group, but had to reschedule due to more snow...

So I call up, and they tell me "well these kinds of appointments are only offered on certain days" I ask 'what do you mean?' She replies "well you will ONLY see a OB nurse and have your blood drawn"

I was a bit beyond pissed. So I get to pay my full freaking co pay to have a nurse do a screening for genetic problems talk (already sent me the form for me to check off what nationality I am, etc.) and to scare me into all the pregnancy tests they can think of. Then check my blood to see "if" I am pregnant!

PHFFFFT. I have to take time off of work for a waste of time. My RE has tested my blood thank you... And well, yes, it is positive. Hey, did you notice the three ultrasound reports sent to your office all showing a baby????

I hate "the birth pipeline"... I just wish I did not need Metformin, and that I could just step away from this crap.

Busy Monday...

Well I had an 8:00 allergist appointment, where i was scolded for not comming in sooner and suffering all winter/spring with stuffy/runny nose and congestion from my allergies. I felt like a dork.. But with life so busy, and well, I just dealt with it. Annoying yes, but carrying tons of cleenex became a normal thing for me.

And this afternoon I have my first OB appointment. I am hopefull that I can have a good relationship with them, and hopefully start this journey off better than my last one. My task this AM was pulling all my paperwork out that this OB will want to see. That meant me digging through my 4" binder of medical jargon hell, trying to find what is pertinent.

It was not fun, dug up a bunch of stuff I wish I never had to live through. Most of all I hate the fact that my cesarean for DD is marked as ELECTIVE! That pisses me off. In no way did I choose just to have a cesarean because I wanted one! I hate the fact that it does not state "OB Required" Because that is what it was! OB required due to their fear! FEAR! That they could not control my birth outcome! But the sad fact of the matter is NO HUMAN can control the outcome of my pregnancies and birth! Only GOD! And last time I checked he was not making guestimates behind the ultrasound machine or weilding a scalpel to dissect me!

So, I just do not know how to handle this. I am really nerovus and know my blood pressure will probably be all wacked out.. Due to stress! Sigh...

Guess I will try and post more after the appointment. But we are going on vacation Tuesday night, so my time is limited with all the housework and packing I have to do..

Priorities..

So I called my OB's office. It is made up of a collective of OB's, CNMW's, US techs, nurses, etc. Of course I get the voice mailbox for the "triage" nurse. (got to love it, the term triage implies urgent classification right? And it is a voice mailbox!!!) So I leave my message...

Hi, Patient of Dr. O's. I have been diagnosed with missed miscarriage, my LMP was November 19th, 2008, had ultrasound on 1/5/09 confirming non-viable, had appointment with Dr. O on 1/8/09. She wanted me to follow up in two weeks. It has been three weeks and I have no signs that I will miscarry anytime soon. I would like an appointment with Dr. O. Please call me back at xxx-xxx."

That was 11:00am...

And it is now 7:13 pm and NO CALL! Triage my ass! When it is their idea they are all over you, riding you to "comply" (or should I say become submissive to their godly requests) with what they want. But when it is my life, my emotions, on the line... what do I get.... NO CALL BACK!

I know everything happens for a reason, and maybe, just maybe it is because I should just wait a bit longer.. Who knows...

I did start up again on the Black and Blue Cohosh. Maybe now that I have had some contractions, things will eventually move along.. Any day now...