The Re-draw

Well, the numbers are back for the second draw, three days later.

1562 at 4 weeks 5 days

So the numbers are slightly more than doubling. So far so good. Nurse scheduled first ultrasound for Thursday the 14th at 7:20am. That will be our next milestone. I should be 5w6d so we "should" be able to see a HB if things are going well. So that will be my next test.

How am I feeling? Excited, nervous, hopeful. Hopeful that this one will stick.

So life goes on. I feel like we slipped by another catastrophe for now. But just wish I did not live feeling like any moment the world can crash around me. I try to focus on my world being more than just this. My world is my DD, my DH, my home, my job, my EMS fun time. That my world is full, and this is just one more thing I want in my world, desire to have in my world. And yes, my world would be better with one more.

And the number is.....

655 at 4 weeks 3 days

That is the first Beta HcG. So it is "good" in a relative term, meaning it is higher than say 50 and present. Besides that, there is nothing else to be concluded by the number.

So I go in on Wednesday morning and get the second draw. That one will tell if things are increasing or not... At this rate, the number should be around 2620. After that draw, we will schedule the US...

Feelings.... How do I feel? Ok. Not hyper crazy happy, not sad or too anxious. I just feel ok. It is a nice feeling, sort of content to keep on keeping on and not worry too much about all of this. After all what will be will be..

What is it about Syracuse?

Well, went back to my "roots" for my nephews first birthday from April 22 to the 26th. It was nice to see family, and to hold the "chunk". He is 1 and weighs 25 lbs!!!! My DD will be four in July and only weights 34lbs!

But what was odd, is I kept getting this feeling to POAS? This feeling like, well, a feeling.. I have not remembered having a feeling like this.. Sort of like this knowing... This gut feeling... Odd. I am not due for AF for about a week...

It is funny because last pregnancy I POAS in syracuse, and got a BFP...